"you brainless, stupid little biatch haven't changed at all! and you think you're that strong, independent and sensible woman, huh!? you haven't changed a bit...in fact, you're worse than before....and getting really more stupid!"

dang...i've been trying to talk myself outta this mess i got in lately. been trying soooo damn hard to come to my senses and realize that it's not really worth it. geeshh...how can i let myself get into such mess when i already am in one? can somebody just hit me real hard? please..on the head? now!?

(sob)

all these time i thought i'll never let myself be fooled again. well, i know i am stupid already...but to get myself into such complicated situation while i am already in one troubled, complicated, messed up situation is really one wrong move i made just recently. now, i just want to strangle myself and die. or maybe walk blindly in a busy street...

acccckk! i'm such a loser...